Description
We Just Watch Them Has Burning
Artist: Halo Color
Technique: Acrylic on Canvas
Dimension: 50×70 CM
Year: 2024
Price: 25,000 THB
Since entering treatment, one piece of advice from my psychiatrist has echoed deeply within me, something he’s emphasized again and again: “Let it go. Just let it be. It’s like watching a scene in a movie where Ayutthaya is burning , just observe.”
With my mind and heart feeling hollow and adrift, the destination once clear has become hazy and aimless. My thoughts spiral. While working on this piece, the composition drifted wildly. I kept adding, kept improvising, unable to grasp any essence. Chaos. Disorder. So much time wasted. I left it unfinished, thinking maybe I’d return once I figured it all out. And then the question arose: Who am I, really?
Looking at the overall picture, the elements, the process, the time lost, sitting face to face with my inner Godzilla, I finally received an answer that brought me closer to knowing myself. I realized that all my life, I’ve been pretending. Deceiving myself. Crafting a persona just to earn praise from others, to decorate myself in their admiration. And I’ve come to know myself even more: there are countless reasons to hate who I am — too many to explain fully in this single piece.
My psychiatrist: “Let that shit go.”
